慈母手中线。。。

Just saw this documentary about children abandoning their parents on Channel 8… It just makes me realize that there are really all types of people around…. The concept of abandoning your own parents is just… wrong. What could possibly make these “children” do such a thing? Some may assign filial piety to Asian culture.. but I think there’s no borders to this loving your parents… some may not express this love overtly… I for one confess to this… but deep down I know I love them.. I can’t help but to despise these “children”… Y.T.

游子吟 孟郊

慈母手中线，游子身上衣。

临行密密缝，意恐迟迟归。

谁言寸草心，报得三春晖。

爱。。

爱的滋味是甜美的。。。

也是苦涩的。。

那种患得患失。。。

那种发自内心的爱恋与思念。。

深深的令我陶醉。。。 映之心影

一闪一闪亮晶晶。。。

Looked up my horoscope last night because someone said I'm very Aries... turned out it was quite accurate on some parts... ONLY some parts.... .... How is it that people borne near the same period of time of the year share similar traits? Just because that a certain planet millions of miles away is "above" you when you were born? How scientific is that?? Ancient people justified it as a science by making charts of stars and heaven...calculating longitude & latitude with relation to distances from planets.... modernity termed it "astrology".... .... Personally I think its just a bunch of hocus pocus... not that I don't belive in it... there's just that bit more accuracy to what it says than what I would considered as crap... The thing is why is there a need to "scientify" it? Isn't it better to leave it as.... for lack of a more proper term, an "art" rather than a "science"... From a friend: people that belive in horoscope and stuff are just romantics in their heart, no matter what they claimed... Y.T.

累 以恒

累！

身心疲惫，眼角更多憔悴。

痴情自古让人醉，把酒全是泪。

黑夜孤寂，问谁与归？但求一夜不寐。 映之心影 改“痴”一字

乌云不见喽！！

这几天困扰着我的问题终于得到了一个不算完整的答案。。。
虽然这个回复不是最好的，但总是继续让我有了希望。。。
心情变好了，来临的考试也变得不沉重了。。哈哈。。。

中学同学要出嫁了。。祝她幸福，快乐！
。。。不知不觉中大家都长大了。。见面的时间少了，但是之间的联系应该不会变淡吧。。
不会的。。至少每一次的相聚都非常兴奋，愉快。。回味当初总是十分温馨，回忆都是那么美好。。自己应该是一个怀旧的人吧。。对于过去终有着那一丝的情感。。 映之心影

初章。。。

First thing that came to my mind when I decided to start this blog is... why? Do I have a need to tell the whole world about myself? Can't I find something else better to do? Especially when the exams are coming up in about 3 weeks time... ... maybe its a moment of weakness... a certain thing is stressing me out this few days and it probably won't be resolved as quickly as I hoped for... but I'm praying for a positive outcome... begging would be more right since the certain deity that I’m comfortable with would most probably see ??? at this English post... For someone that had never written his personal thoughts down before, this exercise on the keyboard came surprisingly easy...
maybe its just because I need an outlet to release everything's that bottled up... more on these stuff later....

Speaking of languages, I found it perplexed, if not surprised, at the Singaporean blogs I've visited... Agreed, that English is the more common medium of communication among the net yuppies but what about Mandarin? Or all Mother Tongue for that matter... At least to me and most friends around me the most comfortable language we converse in is Mandarin, albeit it’s the singlish version... So why don't I see anyone writing their thoughts in Chinese? Granted the typing is hell... and the truth is most Singaporeans grasp of the language is at the most superficial level... but I think the same applies to English... people may be more fluent in it but how many are there who can really take the further step and express themselves in the language? Maybe it’s just me but I believe to be able to say that I'm proficient in a language means you must at least have the most basic literary mastery... otherwise isn't it just a tool like hand signs? Just much faster.... Think I'm rambling too much about this and I'm sure lots of people don't agree with me.. This whole paragraph is just to explain to my readers...if there are any... that I may write in Chinese occasionally since I feel that I can express myself in it much better... and it’s a beautiful language after all... This blog would not be regular I think... it may have entries everyday or between weeks.... it all depends....

Ok now that the housekeeping matter's over, ( I don't know why I need to explain all these stuff since this blog would most probably get few visitors... but its just my nature haha...) let's talk about stuff. Something that I've been thinking before the school semester and that’s sort of creeping back now is the aim in life... this may sound very philosophical but really, what is it? Here in Singapore, most of us have been doing the paper chase for as long as we can remember and while learning is good, it’s only partially the reason we do it. People tell me a degree's good to help me land a job and with a good job come the means to support myself and blah blah blah.... But before all that, what's our purpose in life? The guys who played mahjong with me (yes...I play mahjong...and I think about stuff ok?) may remember me uttering the phrase生无可恋。。。 Of course, I don't have any suicidal intent... what I meant then was there's no specific thing I can affixed my purpose in life to at that point in time...( see the beauty of Chinese words? haha...?) I used to think that being the only intelligent species on the planet, there must be something that we are suppose to do instead of arguing among ourselves and fighting all the time... ain't there a higher purpose to life? Are we just suppose to just live out our lives and that’s it？I found that rather unsettling and till now I can't find something that really fits my idea of life's purpose..... so settling for something much less dramatic, I'm thinking of making that impact someplace else... maybe in the teaching realm.... Think I will touch on that and other stuff some other time.... Don't wanna bore you people with all the things in my head at one go.... .... this is the easiest 1000 words I've come to in my whole university life... why can't writing papers be this easy.... Y.T.

生活平淡 渴望激情

激情日子 向往平淡

平淡激情 属我为何？ 映之心影